happiness!!!all ii feel is happiness..24hrs of happy..endlessly de love..wat can ii complain?nth at all..haha..

shld ii feel happy to have a bf like him?ii always v stubborn..he always there for mii..he always say ii dun understand him..but ii noe ..ii onli pretend tt ii dunno.. ii noe he busy..less time for mii.. but ii onli wan him to b wid mii.. sometime ii scold him.. but he nv once shout at mii.. he makes mii happy when i down.. sometime ii dunno whether to b happy or shld b stress..haiyo..some more now ii transfer to tm liao..work there for 1 mth..stil gt another 2 mth more..but mii frenx wan quit liao lo..sian..ii dunno la.. ii now own pp $$..v stress...few hundred lo..den salary spend liao..now waitin for july 7..c this fashion gt giv mii pay nt lo..if nt..ii sure die.. my bf nv lent mii any $$..make mii so angry til wanna break wid him.. kns.. jefferson gd lo.. ii onli noe him 3 wks..he lent mii $$ le..really v touch.. ii used to call him darlin..cux at there mii n him can talk onli.. den he now help mii.. ii really wanna fall for him..did ii sound stupid??ii dunno.. he also quite a gd guy la..always treat mii drink soft drink when workin.. ii ask him to transfer wid mii..but he dun wan..feel so sad in tm..cux ii like the way he make fun n we joke together..ii really miss him..mayb as a frenx lo..he say he is my father..haha..ii older than him lo..despite he also 19..

 

did ii sound flirt?eveytime ii wid my bf..ii stil talkin wid guy..sayin darlin those thing..but my bf din say anythin..issit tt he mind it?or he din even care abt it?ii dunno..he wan a shoes tt cost $99..ii sms him sayin tt if he tink ii his atm..den we might as well break..ii feel v stress lo..he noe ii dun have $$ liao lo..y he stil ask?he noe ii sun gt $$..he ask mii out..last week he told mii he nt free..issit cost ii gt $$ liao..tt y he wan go out wid mii?or am ii tinkin too much?ii dunno..serious speakin..if ii gt $$..mayb ii wil buy the $ 99 thing for him..but now the problem is ii dun have.. he v selfish..uu noe..ii tired la.. onli when he wan somethin..den wil darlin n dear..ah bo 1 sms or call also dun have lo..

 

v weird lo..jux now ii say he v gd..den now ii say he nt gd..actually ii also dunno la..as long as he dun ask for too much..den is okok lo..but serious speakin..probably we wil nt last..ii dunno..

I'm sitting here along up in my room
And thinking about the times that we've been through (oh my love)
I'm looking at a picture in my hand
Trying my best to understand
I really want to know what we did wrong
With a love that felt so strong
If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
'Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever
you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

I know I've been a fool since you've been gone
I'd better give it up and carry on (oh my love)
'Cause living in a dream of you and me
Is not the way my life should be
I don't want to cry a tear for you
So forgive me if I do
If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
'Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever
you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

I'd do anything, I'd give you my world
I'd wait forever, to be your girl
Just call out my name, and I will be there
Just to show you how much I care

I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
'Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever
you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

I was born to make you happy

Always and forever
you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

I will not make
I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid
I lose my way
I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing Because of you Because of you Because of you I am afraid
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

2 days after ii gg for the entrance test..ii so scare..ii have no motivation..to let myself to pass the test..ii jux too stress n too slack..the journey is long..

            DUN TELL MII HOW GENTLE SHE IS ..

            DUN TELL MII BREAKIN OFF IS CUZ FOR MY OWN GOOD..

 

tml off le..xiao wei wan mii go out wid her..mii wan go tp apply..den mii mum wan mii go chinatown wid her..ii dunno la..mornin go tp..den mayb nt meetin xiao wei ba..sian..after tml off..ii have to wait til cny den can off.. tired..ii cry.. ii cry alot..ii miss him.. promise nt to write this in the blog anymore..haha..but ii stil writin it now..ii wan to c him ..jux happen on the road..at least ii noe his life is stil gg fine..he happy ii gt nth more to hope..but more can ii hope..my life is like gonna b like tis 4ever..y pp can do wat they like..can dream wat they wan..but mii?y ii cant..ii have to do thing to please every1..gettin more n more tired of myself..

ii quite sad la..

cuz ii alone..y like tt?

ii like mii old de outlet..compare to now de.. if dun have the supervisor..

ii sure ask for gg back there to work..

they so care for mii..motherly love..haha

cux ii lack of tt.. haix..

compare to here..ii feel so lonely..

here ii spend on alot of $$on food..

broke liao..feelin so sad..